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help me.... :(

WHEN SHE CRIES...

When She Cries lyrics

(written by Marc Beeson and Sonny LeMaire)
The road I have travelled on
Is paved with good intentions
It's littered with broken dreams
That never quite came true
When all of my hopes were dying
Her love kept me trying
She doesn't has to hide
The pain that she's been through
(Chorus)
When she cries at night
And she doesn't think that I can hear her
She tries to hide all the fears she feels inside
So I pray this time
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cause I die a little each time
When she cries
She's always been there for me
Whenever I'm falling
When nobody else believed
She'd be there by my side
I don't know how she takes it
Just once I like to make it
Then the tears of joy
Will fill her loving eyes
(Repeat chorus)
So I pray this time
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cause I die a little each time
When she cries


---- i so larb this song. matatouch siguro ang babaeng kakantahan ng lalaki ng kantang to. 
hahahaha. 

ONE REALLY GETS BETTER AFTER CRYING

one really gets better after crying.
i don't know why i cried again.
maybe because i have become tired again?
hurt? broken?
i really don't know the reason why..
maybe i just need to cry..
to reveal the sadness i am feeling despite other people always seeing me smiling..

as one text message goes... "you're the only one who knows how much you're hurting.. they can only predict.. but they can never can tell.. "
tama man? (superhero pose)

WAG MASYADONG EPAL

sino ka ba para maki.echus sa amin ha?
ni hindi nga tayo close at di rin kayo close nang taong sinumbungan mo.
wag ka kasi masyadong FC. at wag din masyadong EPAL.
wag ka kasing lumugar sa mga lugar na hindi naman para sa 'yo.
kung di ka naman sigurado, wag kang magsasasabi nang kung anu-ano. lalo na kung di mo talaga alam ang mga pangyayari.

iniisip ko nga kung nakaaway ba kita o may nagawa ba akong masama sa 'yo. pero sa pagkakaalala ko, wala eh. gusto mo ba talaga nang gulo?

BE CAREFUL SA MGA BITTER. oo, aaminin ko naging bitter din ako sa mga pangyayari NOON. pero alam mo naman siguro na may tinatawag din tayong MOVING ON stage di ba? at sino ka para sabihin yan ha?
anung gusto mong palabAsin? na ang friendship ko sa taong sinumbungan mo ay peke? o ikaw ung peke?

ang aking lamang, WAG KASING MAKIALAM KUNG DI KA PINAPAKIALAMAN. nakakainit kasi ng dugo alam mo ba 'yun?

pagbibigyan kita ngayon. pero oras na makialam ka pa, baka mahanap mo na ang katapat mo.

SACRIFICES

i am really sad. really, really sad. coz i think i am losing all hope to see them this christmas vacation. and i hate the fact that i have to sacrifice again.

eventhough i appreciate my friends who are supportive of me and keep on inviting me to spend the season with them, it's really different when you're with people whom you barely spend time with. i so miss them. but what can i do? how will i be able to see them when the person i want to feel what i feel does not feel the same?

i don't know why, but my heart seems heavy nowadays. oh yes, i laugh, make my friends laugh whenever i'm with them. but every now and then, i just can't help but to feel sad about my current situation.
what? should i really have to accept the fact that i have to sacrifice again for the sake of other people?

you know what? i 'm really tired of making sacrifices for the same people over and over again. why can't you just sacrifice for me even just this once? you're really abusing me... remember, i may be physically strong and appear strong, but my heart is not that strong. especially with the so many things that have happened to me.

and one thing that made me sad even more was when my dad called me awhile ago. he did not even bring up the topic about having to stay there with him on christmas vacation. can't he see that our christmas and new year won't be the same anymore since my mom is not with us? or he really does not even care?
i honestly don't want to think that he does not care. but everytime i forgive him, he's bound to disappoint me again.

i guess with this blog, it's pretty obvious that i'm tired. i am really, really tired. and i hate to feel my tears falling while i'm typing this. i honestly am so hurt. so,so hurt.

and before i end this blog, i want to thank my uberfriends for really helping me to be happy and see the positive aspect of not being able to spend my christmas vacation with my family. i really appreciate it. and i hope that i will really be able to spend my time with you guys during the season. :)