CONTROL FREAK

not having to control your life is like not knowing what you want in life.
i haven't made thoughts about this thing until people made me suddenly feel unsure.
i mean, i'm already 21 years old, and i still can't control what i want to happen with my life.

yes, i choose my friends, i chose my boyfriend, i chose to whose group i should belong to.
but aside from these, can i really choose what i want to happen with my life?

the answer is yes. technically because i own my life.
i am the main responsible to the things that happened, has happened, is happening and will happen to it.
to tell honestly, i'm tired of always taking advices from people and do it immediately without even thinking on what i want to do with it.
i'm, tired of letting people control my life without me realizing it.
advices are meant to make you think right?
it doesn't mean that if someone give you an advice, you should immediately do it right?
well i guess i'm tired of not having to control my own life and always listen to people whom i thought have the best interests in me.
i won't mention any names but for sure, you know who you are.
you just need to have some self-reflection with that.

on the other hand, i myself also know that i'm quite a control freak at times.
but believe me, with the confused emotions i have right now, i'm not in the position to control anyone, in particular.
i know that. that's why don't be bothered if i'm not the control freak that you used to know.


i heard this line from someone and i forgot who he or she was.
"hayaan mong madapa ang tao. para mismo siya ang matutong tumayo para sa sarili niya".
actually, this is the line that i have been telling other people when they worry about others.
but i myself sometimes forget about it.
i guess i have to always put this in my mind though. hahaha.
with this line, it doesn't mean that you don't care for your loved ones.
actually, it means that you care enough about them to let them do what they want and experience what they should experience for them to learn.
it's not about playing safe with whatever probable outcome of their actions, it's about letting them learn on their own.

as for me, i'm doing that right now.
many thanks for the people who made me realize this thing.
i still have many things to learn on my own, i know that.
but the sad thing is, i'm still letting people control what should happen with my life.
i thought maybe, i just love them so much to even give in to what they want to happen.
but whenever i think about this way, do they even think of my feelings too?


i do get tired.
of giving in to their wants. of understanding to what they want to happen.
of them controlling my life.
but mind you, i do value your care and your concern.
but despite all of these, have you ever thought about this thing: "are you really concerned for the person? or are you more concerned with what other may think of you for having a loved-one like him or her?"

BEING A CONTROL FREAK IS DIFFERENT FROM BEING CONCERNED.
there is a thin line separating these two.

now, i'm not being an E-M-0 here. i'm just expressing my thoughts, actually.
well, i guess based on this blog, you can guess two things.
i'm tired of being concerned and caring for other people who don't even give a damn with these.
and i'm tired of letting other people control my life, based on their own happiness that overlap with mine.

i'm sorry. but i guess it's time to think of my own happiness too.

NOT A WASTE OF TIME

oh my gosh.

i haven't realized i am experiencing what i do not expect to happen.

why the hell i'm confused on what i have to do?

i don't even know what i want. i don't even know what i am right now.

it seems that it was way,way,way better when i was in college.

all i have to think is to pass my subjects and pass my thesis as well.

and of course, i did all of those.

i was even excited when i finally knew that, yes, i would be graduating this April.

and when April came nearer as each day passed by, my excitement turned into a fear.

now why fear? because i'm in the real world now. and i am facing it, with no assurance on what i want to happen with my life.

yeah. i got a job. a job i thought i wouldn't enter. but guess what, i did. and working in a so-called call center was like heaven and hell. heaven with the many friends that i have gained and with the salary i had ( but wasn't able to save any of it). and hell because the work shift killed me. it somehow changed my personality. it changed the way on how i treat people. it changed everything.

now that i'm officially unemployed and currently looking for a stable job, i'm sooo damn bored.

it's difficult for me to stay at my house and just browse the Internet, watch movies, watch Asian and American dramas. but well, what can i do? i'm also damn broke. Help!

or maybe. just maybe, God is giving me this idle time to let me think on what i want to do with my life. actually, this bored moments that i am experiencing right now, has helped me learn to value things and people. it helped me become responsible again, slowly. it helped me realize that hey, there's a lot more to happen, i just have to wait and see, and of course, do my part as well.

i've come to realize that i should try and learn new things for me to develop my skills. for me to have new experiences that i can share. and boy, i am about to do that.

and in everything that i can only do as of the moment, i gain knowledge from it. just by merely watching those tv dramas and movies, i can learn some realities of life that i'm bound to experience as well.

and as of the moment, i am currently watching gossip girl series. and i think i would continue watching these TV dramas and movies until i can have a stable job of my own. :)

BLANKO ANG UTAK

today was terrible.
i woke up late.
i wasn't able to pass our assignment in spcm.
i wasn't myself because of nervousness for my third video.
what i feared came true.
it wasn't accepted again.
in short, i should make my fourth video.
damn. i'm really getting tired of this.
repeat and repeat.
always better but not enough.
what should i do?
is this a sign that i should get extended? or a challenge again? which is which?

hahai..

pero salamat sa aking mga kaibigan na pilit akong pinasaya kaninang hapon..
napakasupportive nila pagkatapos kong humagulgol.
salamat kay karel, daryl at irish. salamat sa karaoke moments natin kanina. kahit puro para kay george ang mga kanta natin. hahaha. peace george.

salamat kay teena at marie na pinalakas ang loob ko sa paggawa ng animation video nalang. kaso narealize kong kelangan ko gumawa ng bagong proposal kung gagawin ko nalang animation ang video ko. so ma.e.extend pa rin ako if ever. hahai. pero salamt parin sa pag comfort sa akin nug humagulgol ako.

salamat din sa'yo kuyadoyle for giving suggestions sa akin. sana nga lang pumayag nag mga sinaggest mo. hahai.

salamat sa'yo kent for making me happy tonight. happy monthsari ulit sa atin. salamat sa simpleng celebration. hahaha. simple lang pero masyadong okay. i love it.

salamat sa inyong lahat. sana nga lang ay makagraduate pa rin ako on time kahit masyado nang maraming dagok ang dinulot sa akin ng thesis kong ito. pinpilit ko talagang maging optimistic pero napapagod na ako.
siguro ay kelangan ko nalang hintayin ang wednesday pati thursday at nanag malaman ko kung ano talaga ang mangyayari sa akin.

pero hinihiling ko talaga na maging maayos ang lahat. dahil hindi ko talaga alam kung paano ko sasabihin sa ermats ko ang lahat ng ito. at hindi ko parin tanggap ang posibilidad na baka extended ang life ko sa UPMIn.

*sigh.. help.. :(

TOMORROW IS THE DAY.

my ged.
i'm really nervous for tomorrow.
even though i'm bing optimistic about it, i can't help but think what if?
gosh. i just hope she will accept it finally. i am hoping that i have already reached her standards.
ged.
i'm really nervous big time. :)

SECRETS OF LOVE? :)

NOTE: I got this from Nisa's note.. :)

THE FIRST SECRET

The Power of Thought.Love begins with our thoughts. We become what we think about. Loving thoughts create loving experiences and loving relationships.Affirmations

can change our beliefs
and thoughts about ourselves and others. If we want to love someone, we need to consider their needs and desires. Thinking about your ideal partner will help you recognize humor her when you meet him or her.

THE SECOND SECRET

The Power of Respect.You cannot love anyone or anything unless you first respect them. The first person you need to respect is yourself. To begin to gain self-respect ask yourself: "What do I respect about myself?" To gain respect for others, even those you may dislike, ask yourself: "What do I respect about them?"

THE THIRD SECRET

The Power of Giving.If you want to receive love, all you have to do is give it! The more love you give, the more you will receive. To love is to give of yourself, freely and unconditionally. Practice random acts of kindness. Before committing to a relationship ask not what the other person will be able to give to you, but rather what will you be able to give them.The secret formula of a happy, lifelong, loving relationship is to always focus on what you can give instead of what you can take.

THE FOURTH SECRET

The Power of Friendship.To find a true love, you must first find a true friend. Love does not
consist of gazing into each others eyes, but rather looking outward together in the same direction. To love someone completely you must love them for who they are, not what they look like. Friendship is the soil through which love's seeds grow. If you want to bring love into a relationship, you must first bring friendship.

THE FIFTH SECRET

The Power of Touch.Touch is one of the most powerful expressions of love, breaking down barriers and bonding relationships. Touch changes our physical and emotional states and makes us more receptive to love.

THE SIXTH SECRET

The Power of Letting Go."If you love something, set it free. If it comes back to you it's yours,if it doesn't it never was." Even in a loving relationship, people need their own space. If we want to learn to love, we must first learn to forgive and let go of past hurts, and grievances. Love means letting goof our fears, prejudices, egos and conditions. "Today I let go of all my fears, the past has no power over me-today is the beginning of a new life."

THE SEVENTH SECRET

The Power of Communication.When we learn to communicate openly and honestly, life changes. To love someone is to communicate with them. Let the people you love know that you love them and appreciate them. Never be afraid to say those three magic words: "I Love You." Never let an opportunity pass to praise someone. Always leave someone you love with a loving word - it could be the last time you see them. If you were about to die but could make telephone calls to the people you loved, who would you call, what would you say and... why are you waiting?

THE EIGHTH SECRET

The Power of Commitment. If you want to have love in abundance, you must be committed to it, and that commitment will be reflected in your thoughts and actions. Commitment is the true test of love. If you want to have a loving relationships, you must be committed to loving relationships. When you are committed to someone or something, quitting is never an option. Commitment distinguishes a fragile relationship from a strong one.


THE NINTH SECRET

The Power of Passion.Passion ignites love and keeps it alive. Lasting passion does not come through physical attraction alone, it comes from deep commitment,enthusiasm, interest and excitement. Passion can be recreated by recreating past experiences when you felt passionate. Spontaneity and surprises produce passion. The essence of love and happiness are the same; all we need to do is to live each day with passion.

THE TENTH SECRET

The Power of Trust. Trust is essential in all loving relationships. Without it one person becomes suspicious, anxious and fearful and the other person feel strapped and emotionally suffocated. You cannot love someone completely unless you trust them completely. Act as if your relationship with the person you love will never end. One of the ways you can tell whether a person is right for you is to ask yourself: "Do I trust them completely and unreservedly?" If the answer is "NO", then you must think very carefully before you make any type of commitment.

ONCE AGAIN.

isa nalang talaga..
papatulan na talaga kita.. promise! :)

UBER-UBER.

iniwan mo na nga siya, ba't mo pa babalikan?
dahil pinagsisihan mong iniwanan mo siya?
or dahil ayaw mong makita na masaya na siya sa piling ng iba?

kung ako sa 'yo, wag kanang manggulo.
pasimple ka rin noh?

yan talaga ang napapala ng mga taong di alam kung anong gusto.
kami pa talaga ang pinapahirapan mo.
sa totoo lang, ayaw na kitang patulan pa.
kasi it's cheap eh.

eh kaso patuloy ka sa panggugulo mo eh.
gunggong ka pala eh.
lumugar ka nga sa lugar mo.
o baka gusto mo pang ako ang maghatid sa lugar mo?


ayoko na ring magkasala pa.
kaya di ko na sasabihin sa blog kon ito kung sino ka.
pero obvious ata kung sino ang tinutukoi ko rito eh.
hay naku. i'm not telling anything na lang.
baka ako pa ang magmukhang masama niyan.

basta. naiinis ako sa 'yo.
naiinis talaga.
peste ka.
magsure2 ka nga sa kung ano ba talaga ang gusto mo.
at nang di malito ang mga tao sa 'yo.

uber-uber ka kasi.

LOVE IS IN THE AIR AGAIN.. :)

After 48 years( exag!) ay nagkaboyfriend na ulit ako. naks naman. sa pagiging choosy ko last year, siya lang pala ang makakakuha ulit ng heart ko. tsar again. pero totoo naman.

wala lang. siyempre, parang ang tagal-tagal bago nag.sink in ulit sa akin na may bf na nga ako. heller. ikaw ba naman matagal nawalan ng boyfriend, siguro naman mararamdaman mo ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. pero masarap naman sa feeling na meron na ulit. meron na namang dumagdag. hahaha.

at heto pa, mahaba-habang usapan din ang pinagdaanan namin bago naging finally kami. kasi naman, di naman talaga nating ma-i-i-deny na talagang natorpe siya. gwapo naman pero torpe nga lang.
buti na nga lang kamo, sa tulong nang aming friends, ay nasabi niya ang dapat niyang sabihin sa akin. pero mind you.. di rin biro ang naging ligawan namin. xet. pero chox lang naman. na.keri rin lang naman din. hahaha

at kaya ngyon, almost 1month na kami. 1month pa lang. adjustment stage palang. kasi nga bago pa nga lang kami. hehe

sabi pa nila, may resemblance pa siya dun sa luma ko. ung iba naman, taller version lang. hai naku. bahala na kung anong mga comments nila. basta all i can say for now, na better siya. sana nga lang better siya. naguumpisa palang kami, kaya di ko talaga masasabi. tama diba?

and one thing for sure, inlababoosh ako ngayon. siguro naman noh, kasi kung hindi, edi sana, hindi pa kami or hindi kami ngayon. buti nalang at naging requited ang love ko for someone. ang sayang maramdaman ulit ang ganitong feeling..

thanks for the respect, appreciation, care and love..

thanks kent eymard respuesto..

p.s. salamat sa presents mo nung valentines.. it's been awhile.. and though we only stayed at home, it's way,way better compared kung lumabas pa tayo.. hehe.. :)

IMMIGRATION VISA

masyado akong excited noon nang sinabi ng ermats ko na magfafile na raw siya ng immigration namin last january.. talagang super excited dahil finally, makakapiling ko na mom ko..

kaso nung finally na niyang sinabi na nagfile na siya, di ko maintindihan yung bigalng naramdaman ko. dati eh sigurado akong excited ako, pero ngayon, ewan ko bah..

marahil siguro naging close ako sa mga taong kasa.kasama ko ngayon.. sila kasi ang kaagapay ko sa mga panahong nangangailangan ako ng tulong.. sa mga panahong malungkot ako.. sa mga panahong wala akong magawa.. actually, i think sa lahat ng panahon.. patawa ba ako? hehehe.. :)

pero sa totoo lang, pakiramdam ko ayoko nag lisanin ang pinas. feel ko kasi dito ako magiging masaya.. nandito na ang mga friends kong maaasahan.. nandito rin ung special someone ko.. kaya ngal ang, wala rito yung mga kapamilya kong matagal ko nang di nakikita.

matagal pa naman ang four years. matagal pa nga, pero baka di ko namamalayang 4 years na pala at baka tuluyan na akong pumunta sa tate.

eh parang desidido ata ang ermats ko na makuha kami kagad dito sa pinas at magkasam na kami ulit..

buti sana kung pwede kaggad ako makabalik dito pag nagkataon, eh hindi naman dahil ang mahal mahal kaya ng pamasahe noh. todo kayod muna bago ako makabalik dito. hahai.

kasi naman.. baka siguro di ko kaya tanggapin ang fact na kaapg nagkatotoo na talaga ito, first taym kong mangiiwan ng mga tao. eh sanay pa naman akong ako ang iniiwan. oops! di ako emo ha.. nagsasabi lamang ako ng totoo. alam ko kaya ang pakiramdam nang iiwanan.. at truly, masakit noh. lalo na kung di mo alam kung kelang kayo ulit magkikita ng taong iiwanan mo..

wala lang. gusto ko lang malaman ng mga taong makakabasa nito ang nararamdaman ko tungkol sa bagay na ito. ewan ko ba, naiiyak nga ako habang ginagawa itong blog na ito. tsar! peri di nga, naiiyak lang ako. shet. ang layo-layo pa ng 4years pero parang pakiramdam ko ang lapit- lapit na.

sige lang. marami pang pwedeng mangyari. ika nga nila, "it's too soon to tell what may really happen.."

:)

HAPPENINGS.. :)

i've come to realize that there were lots of things that happened to me for the last few months..
happenings that made both happy and sad at the same time..
i've become closer to my uberfriends and i'm thankful for it...
i've new set of friends which i am really thankful for again..
i've someone special in my heart again but then again i don't know if there's a future for the two of us..
and right now, i m busily cramming for the deadline of my thesis this friday.. my gawd.. i am not even sure if i can really make it on time. but i'm still hoping that i will..

thanks for the people who keep on supporting me and worrying also when i worry about my thesis.. and i really hope that i can pass it this friday.. bahala na jud maupaw ko usab bah.. basta mahuman lang jud nako ni. hahaha.. :)

.......

help me.... :(

WHEN SHE CRIES...

When She Cries lyrics

(written by Marc Beeson and Sonny LeMaire)
The road I have travelled on
Is paved with good intentions
It's littered with broken dreams
That never quite came true
When all of my hopes were dying
Her love kept me trying
She doesn't has to hide
The pain that she's been through
(Chorus)
When she cries at night
And she doesn't think that I can hear her
She tries to hide all the fears she feels inside
So I pray this time
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cause I die a little each time
When she cries
She's always been there for me
Whenever I'm falling
When nobody else believed
She'd be there by my side
I don't know how she takes it
Just once I like to make it
Then the tears of joy
Will fill her loving eyes
(Repeat chorus)
So I pray this time
I can be the man that she deserves
'Cause I die a little each time
When she cries


---- i so larb this song. matatouch siguro ang babaeng kakantahan ng lalaki ng kantang to. 
hahahaha. 

ONE REALLY GETS BETTER AFTER CRYING

one really gets better after crying.
i don't know why i cried again.
maybe because i have become tired again?
hurt? broken?
i really don't know the reason why..
maybe i just need to cry..
to reveal the sadness i am feeling despite other people always seeing me smiling..

as one text message goes... "you're the only one who knows how much you're hurting.. they can only predict.. but they can never can tell.. "
tama man? (superhero pose)

WAG MASYADONG EPAL

sino ka ba para maki.echus sa amin ha?
ni hindi nga tayo close at di rin kayo close nang taong sinumbungan mo.
wag ka kasi masyadong FC. at wag din masyadong EPAL.
wag ka kasing lumugar sa mga lugar na hindi naman para sa 'yo.
kung di ka naman sigurado, wag kang magsasasabi nang kung anu-ano. lalo na kung di mo talaga alam ang mga pangyayari.

iniisip ko nga kung nakaaway ba kita o may nagawa ba akong masama sa 'yo. pero sa pagkakaalala ko, wala eh. gusto mo ba talaga nang gulo?

BE CAREFUL SA MGA BITTER. oo, aaminin ko naging bitter din ako sa mga pangyayari NOON. pero alam mo naman siguro na may tinatawag din tayong MOVING ON stage di ba? at sino ka para sabihin yan ha?
anung gusto mong palabAsin? na ang friendship ko sa taong sinumbungan mo ay peke? o ikaw ung peke?

ang aking lamang, WAG KASING MAKIALAM KUNG DI KA PINAPAKIALAMAN. nakakainit kasi ng dugo alam mo ba 'yun?

pagbibigyan kita ngayon. pero oras na makialam ka pa, baka mahanap mo na ang katapat mo.

SACRIFICES

i am really sad. really, really sad. coz i think i am losing all hope to see them this christmas vacation. and i hate the fact that i have to sacrifice again.

eventhough i appreciate my friends who are supportive of me and keep on inviting me to spend the season with them, it's really different when you're with people whom you barely spend time with. i so miss them. but what can i do? how will i be able to see them when the person i want to feel what i feel does not feel the same?

i don't know why, but my heart seems heavy nowadays. oh yes, i laugh, make my friends laugh whenever i'm with them. but every now and then, i just can't help but to feel sad about my current situation.
what? should i really have to accept the fact that i have to sacrifice again for the sake of other people?

you know what? i 'm really tired of making sacrifices for the same people over and over again. why can't you just sacrifice for me even just this once? you're really abusing me... remember, i may be physically strong and appear strong, but my heart is not that strong. especially with the so many things that have happened to me.

and one thing that made me sad even more was when my dad called me awhile ago. he did not even bring up the topic about having to stay there with him on christmas vacation. can't he see that our christmas and new year won't be the same anymore since my mom is not with us? or he really does not even care?
i honestly don't want to think that he does not care. but everytime i forgive him, he's bound to disappoint me again.

i guess with this blog, it's pretty obvious that i'm tired. i am really, really tired. and i hate to feel my tears falling while i'm typing this. i honestly am so hurt. so,so hurt.

and before i end this blog, i want to thank my uberfriends for really helping me to be happy and see the positive aspect of not being able to spend my christmas vacation with my family. i really appreciate it. and i hope that i will really be able to spend my time with you guys during the season. :)

CHISMOSO/ CHISMOSA

there was a fire awhile ago at our subdivision.
all of the people, even non-neighbors rushed to our subdivision just to witness it.
i have never thought before how chismax people get.
but when i saw the many people running to our subdivision to witness the fire, i guess they reaaly tend to become chismosa/ chismoso when it comes to those things.
and what did i do during the incident?
i just waited for some tricycle so that i could go to Toril.
and even tricycles were nowhere to be found because of the fire that happened.
Tricycle drivers also rushed to the place of the incident and did not bother to catch some passengers that would have had.

laugh trip whole afternoon.
my gosh. hahahaha. i'm just happy that i have friends who are open-minded, funny and serious at the same time.
friends you can depend on whenever you need a shoulder to lean on and even when you don't need one.
:)

WHY?????

matagal-tagal narin akong di nakakapagblog dito.
siguro ay dahil sa kabisihan sa life ay nakakaligtaan ko nang magblog at kung minsan pa talaga ay dahil tinatamad lang ako.

kaya ngayon ako ay nagbabalik na naman.

heto na naman tayo.
bat mo ba akong pilit ginugulo?
sinusubkan na nga kitang kalimutan, pero pag ako ay nag.iisa, lagi kitang naalala.
pwedeng layuan mo na ako?
matagal ko nang tanggap ang pangyayaring yon. at dahil diyan ay talaga naman nahihirapan akong magtiwala na sa mga lalaki.

pero teka lang, hindi ang mga EX ang tinutukoy ko dito.
pero isang sikreto na kaunti lamang nag nakakaalam.
isang sikretong di ko masabi-sabi sa lahat dahil natatakot ako.
natatakot ako kung anung pwede nilang maisip pag nalaman nila ito.

kung minsan ako ay naiiyak na lamang kapag naiisip ko ang bagay na ito.
di kasi maiwasan kung minsan eh.
siyempre naging parte na ito nang katauhan ko.
paano ko pa ba ito makakalimutan?
kung di naman talaga nakakalimot ang tao? nagpapatawad lamang?

kaya mga kaibigan ko, wag kayong magtaka kung bakit ayokong mag-isa sa panahon na ito at palagi akong naghahanap ng kasiyahan pag kasama ko kayo.

ito kasi ang paraan ko para pansamantalang di ko maalala ang sikretong aking tinutukoy dito sa blog na ito.

sa totoo lang, may mga panahong pag ako ay nagiisa, di ko maiwasan ang umiyak. kasi naman eh...

bakit ba kasi sa akin dapat mangyari yon?
ano bang dahilan kung bakit sa akin nagyaring yon?
dahil kaya ko bang tanggapin lahat? dahil malakas ako?

siguro nga malakas ako. pero may mga panahong sasandal na lamang ako sa balikat ng mga kaibigan ko o di kaya'y yayakapin sila.
kasi di naman talaga sa lahat ng oras, malakas ako eh.

tao lamang ako. :(

TRANSFORMERS

my gawd..
after the long wait,
i finally had the chance to watch that movie.
actually, that's one of my fave movies.
and even when i was still a child,
i would watch the cartoon series(?) everyday.

i dunno why i like this movie.
maybe because i'm into action movie but not having too much action
that you could not understand anymore the story.
or the sound effects the cars(?) or trucks(?) produce everytime they become robots.
i just really, really larb watching them transform.. hahaha!

i really think this movie would be a total hit since
in every mall here in davao, there are four allotted cinemas for it.
and all of them have long lines of people waiting to buy movie tickets.
some of my friends even come back everyday either
because the lines are too long for them to wait or
there are no longer tickets available for them to buy.

at least, in my case, i was able to watch the movie without waiting too long. hahaha.
but aside from the action scenes that it contains, it also teaches some lessons that we ought to learn.
but of course, we'll be able to learn all of them once we experience them. hahaha.

i just hope there would be a transformers 3. hahaha.
kung kay beth della pa, thumbs up ang mive.
pero sa kin, two thumb up!

and to end this blog, i would like to use a quotable quote from the mive itself:

" when i rise, you fall.. " :D

A REALIZATION

before, i believed that people never forget.
they just accept what is happening around them.
i have believed that i would always believed that thought.
but then again, people make you change the way you think,
the way you see life,
the way you love.
i know i should not write things like this anymore.
but well, i couldn't help it.
especially when it hits you sa face mismo ang realization na ganito.
i guess no matter what i do, the past will always haunt me.
and it's up to me how i will handle that fact.
well, i'm handling it pretty good.
and i know i will handle it better. sooner or later.
because of the way i handle it,
i have come to realize that well,
PEOPLE DO FORGET AND IT'S UP TO YOU IF YOU DECIDE TO FORGET THEM AS WELL..